What to do when motivation is nowhere to be found? That was a question I’ve been asking myself for the past three to four days. People always think it’s weird when I’m not feeling 100%, but I can have my days too!
This blog post will be different than how I used to write. For two reasons.
- I like to change it up from time to time. It’s fun to not always write in an ”article” type of way, but instead keep it simple, fresh and kinda story vibe-ish!? (I’m so sorry for destroying the English language. I blame my heritage, though. Here in Holland we’re used to doing that. Believe it or not but our native language is slowly fading away and that is not a joke!)
- And the second reason is that I like to connect with you guys on a more personal level. You know, instead of me sharing my advise, I like to also share with you when I’m struggling with certain things and how I deal with it.
So without any further ado I’ll dive straight into today’s topic which is all about patience, motivation and everything in between.
So I was feeling a bit down for the past days and I can’t really tell why I was feeling like that, but I just felt like that. Like, apparently that’s something women usually go through and I try to sound like I didn’t know that before but I actually do, because I really go through it like.. All the time, to be honest!
As you may or may not know, I originally started blogging on January 3rd 2018. At that time I didn’t really know what I was doing so I decided to put everything on hold to really focus on doing my research to improve my blogging skills and quality. That’s when at the end of March I rebranded my blog to Good Vibes Boulevard and I’m super proud to say that in one month I gained 200+ subscribers! THAT is unbelievable you guys, and I’m super thankful for all the love and support. So, via this way I want to thank each and everyone of you.
Now, ”what has patience and motivation to do with all of this?” I hear you ask. Well, it’s all about the process of blogging. Coming up with new and original content 2 times a week, running all of my social media accounts by myself and living a life outside of that can sometimes be very challenging and when you start to realize that, doubt comes along as well. Because, that’s the mothafukka it is. Doubt always picks the moments you are at your weakest.
And the beautiful thing is that I found myself reading my own blog posts to remind myself to keep going. I write them for the world to read and to inspire, but at the same time I’m also inspiring myself. And please, don’t get me wrong. It’s not that I want to pet myself on the back, but sometimes it’s easy to give advise to someone, but when you’re in that situation yourself, you all of sudden can’t find a solution. Pretty weird, right!?
Prisneyland and Grand Prix’s
So what did I do? I spend the entire Saturday laying on the couch, watching Prison Break and eating junkfood (I know, it’s so bad
don’t judge me). I’ve finished this TV Show last week for the 300 thousandth time, but I like to break my own records. That’s just in my nature, you know! Anyway, I had a beautiful day and I really needed that relaxing-time. I haven’t done that since January, so it felt pretty weird, but I enjoyed it. At least I forgot about that negative feeling for a moment 🙂
Today, has been a bit different though. I was feeling a bit down and not motivated. And here’s the thing: I can be very bitter about this and doubtful, but I’m not going to throw all my hard work away like it’s nothing. Hell, I haven’t even done enough!!
To me, because of this, I now understand that it’s more important to rely on dedication instead of motivation. See, you’re not always motivated, but you can still get shit done. So, after a nice conversation with the sweetest lady on the planet, my mom, I got that positive spirit back and the willpower to blow you all away with my masterpieces. LMAO, no I’m just kidding!!
Stop judging me, Valentino!
Being a positivity ”guru” or writing about personal development, doesn’t mean I have it all figured out. And this counts for every positive person out there. I’m going through life experiencing very beautiful and very shitty things, just like you. I can be very happy and bubbly but when I’m on my period I can cry over a freaking gummy bear.
I had to go through this to understand certain things better. I dislike it – a lot, but it still teaches me something and if I had to share anything with you guys today (besides those 800 words I just wrote lol) it would be, to never give up on your dreams. Never let someone tell you: ”Oh you feel like giving up? That means you should! This isn’t for you, believe me.” Blablabla.
No! Keep fighting. Good things take time. Nothing comes easy life and if you ever feel like giving up, take a deep breath and remember who the fuck you are!
Life is all about finding your balance. It’s a constant learning process that provides patience, awareness and willingness too.
Sooner or later, this feeling will come back, without a doubt. But now I’m ready to whoop it’s ass!
Thank you guys for reading today’s blog post and I hope your last day of April is going to be great because tomorrow…..
roses are red
april is grey
but in a few days pic.twitter.com/piRMMIUKxE
— ً (@stylestruIy) 29 april 2018
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